I'll take my Demons , on the rocks

ubiquitous its everywhere
why can't i seem to shake this.
its time to reflect , i cant run anymore
all the trials and tribulations from my past
facing me , taunting me
i have to let the baggage go
its weight that im no longer strong enough to bear
cant unpack and repack it
i just need to leave it all behind

i blame you most , for my weaknesses
had you not been so selfish
had you cared
youve been given too many chances
im done trying its your turn if you want to fix this

Fountainhead of my ideals
i bearate you none for what was thrust upon my feeble structure
what is being trialed is how you bearate yourself for it
dont let that affect negatively apon blooming roses

a broad rule , like ants 1 is not significant
but when many are joined forming a colony
thats the problem
you all will never know to the extent in which
the combind intrigue to downfall
has entertained my thoughts of self
and others
be wary do on to others what you want done
to you , someday you'll understand this
and when you do
i hope you all the best
until then , you deserve what comes to ya .

A crowning second,
just give me a moment
to tie up the loose ends of this analzyation
throw water on the bridges they've burnt
the predominate affliction
the common denomator
the body of water these rivers flow to and from

sticks and stones may break my bones , but words will never build a dam
the rushing has stopped , all remains calm
rationalising begins , the drowning stopps
open , knowing , anxious , yearning
is where im left

Dis-stress

this stress is killing me ,eatin my brainn up , use to think you were too hot for me
too many obstacles to conquer , i'd conquer the world for you i guess.yup
I’m thinking I must be crazy . My ideals are getting a little hazy
What are you doing to me? Its like I’m driving without a steering wheel.
I have no idea where I’m headed . In some crazy sort of twist of fate , I hope its to you.
I really believe this is real . And if it’s not , don’t ever tell me . I don’t even want to know
to me your perfect in every single way , and more.
how do you feel this way . if sincere then your just as crazy as i
How do I feel this way? Never feeling an embrace , a touch a real look or anything.
How do I know this is real I ask myself .
Its like I’m driving without a steering wheel no gas petal , no brake .. I have no control but I here I am , still on the road . The signs are in a language that I don’t know . I have no idea where I’m going. But in my sub conscience.. and in my not so sub conscience I hope in some plot turn , I’m going to you. How is this real , I am not really sure . I like you the way you are . We click perfectly..
Possibly I have figured out why we are so far .. Something this perfect needs to have its road blocks .. To make it all worth it .. Snow white - the poisoned apple , her evil step mother , sleeping beauty , being asleep , Ariel was a mermaid .. Common denominator they all got their prince .. A couple states and few hundred miles , away from her prince. Damsel in distress . I am in dis-t-r-e-s-s

Retracting Butterflies

Your face, it lights up my day
your voice, my head stopped spinning
your smile, everything’s okay now
your words make my heart stop aching
match made in paradise , perfection has its price
600 miles away ,
smiles fade away , because at the end of the day
I’m here, your there
and that’s not anywhere , we should be anywhere
but where our anywhere is the same where as the other’s same where which is anywhere but where we are .

CMDB *

Once you came along you put me in my place
I wouldn’t listen to anyone , did what I want
You have not said a word but in this case
I’m resisting temptations , no matter how crazy I get
No matter how much I think I need to
You stop me , well lead me to stop
Yet you don’t even have to lift a finger
I’m terrified of you coupled with the intensity
Of the love I have for you .
I guess its quite strange how just knowing your there
Has changed me in ways I cant even fathom .

Battleship Gray

Battleship Gray
The plans are changed , notifying me not in them.
Self destruction has always been the thing .
Would you follow me into the deep?
Would you follow me until the end?
Yes?
I bet you say that to all the girls.
My battleship is gray
My heart is red
My thoughts are yellow
my lips are blue
drowning myself to get away from you.

Distrustion

Distrustion.
It’s a beautiful night , great for useless destruction , at my expense.
Trashed my apartment , crashed my car .
They think I’ve lost it , but that’s not the way
I relised what I never knew.
I don’t need you. Guess I don’t need anyone
You wish that it didn’t have to be this way .
Your empty apologies have driven me to this!
Kiss my lips and taste my pain now do you get why I am insane?Hold my face and look into my eyes
Cant you see im all outta cries
I Just strapped with dynamite , and im about to explode but before I spilt and fall , I just want you to know (just want you to know)that you are pathetic , I have to press this button in a minute
Before I lose my nerve , forget about me please (please do)Whats my name? Forget it . I want you to cease all thoughts that include me
I don’t want your sympathy , you disgust me.
Not very hard , call me ? (Ha!) don’t waste my time I hope you know , I think you should know (you know)
This is all your fault.

nameless i guess?

Serenity now , that serendipity has found its constant
Adversely tempting , let down your guard ,
Being here hurts , for the thought of losing this kills,
Being away kills , being here hurts.
In so far , middle of it all
Turning around would complicate equivalent
To trudging on.